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Wednesday, October 13, 2004


goin out to Krista...

[01.] Who are you? I'm whoever u want me to be, Baby. Haha, preferrablY Benny
[02.] Are we friends? Jes... the bestest
[03.] When and how did we meet? U claim we met in preschool, but all I can remember from preschool was a lolipop that I REALLY REALLY liked, I called him "Paco"
[04.] How have I affected you? In many many ways because I've known u for soo long that I cant just give one answer...
[05.] What do you think of me? you're my bestest friend and I miss you!
[06.] What's the fondest memory you have of me?LOL, just one?
[07.] How long do you think we will be friends?I dunno... I hope for a long time...
[08.] Do you love me?Yup!
[09.] Would you date me? Hmmm... lets see...
[10.] Would you kiss me? Yup
[11.] Would you hug me? Of course
[12.] Physically, what stands out? Your smile that you always look to perfect...
[13.] Emotionally, what stands out? You really need someone to hold you...
[14.] Do you wish I was cooler? lol, no comment... j/k, hehe
[15.] On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? a freakin 15!
[16.] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Krissy, um... cuz u said so?
[17.] Am I loveable? Yup
[18.] How long have you known me? I dunno... a long time?
[19.] Describe me in one word. Krissytacularific
[20.] What was your first impression? you want some of my lolipop?
[21.] Do you still think that way about me now? I dunno, it'd be typical of us to share a lolipop
[22.] What do you think my weakness is? being alone
[23.] Do you think I'll get married?YUP
[24.] What makes me happy? Victor
[25.] What makes me sad? Not Victor?
[26.] What reminds you of me? Pink Stars
[27.] If you could give me anything what would it be? a paink star that I would lasso from the sky
[28.] How well do you know me? I dunno... I'd like to think quite a bit....
[29.] When's the last time you saw me? before I came to Davis
[30.] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? yeah
[31.] Do you think I could kill someone? nah, notpretty innocent Krissy =P
[32.] Are you going to put this on your myspace and see what I say about you? nope, livejournal

Saturday, October 9, 2004

11:41PM - Davis!

WOw... ok, so I know its been a while already, bit I'm here in Davis! Huzzah! its been so rad here, I miss all my poeple at home! my friends! Krissy!!!!! miss ya my best buddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my senior kids friends! My FAMILY!!!!!!! =(, but I'm really fine! Jesus is with me! and I know everything will be ok!!!! I'm tired right now, but I'll update later... bye alls!

Thursday, August 12, 2004



Current mood: cheerful

Wednesday, August 4, 2004

3:10PM - CHIAOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHIAOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I passed my driver's test!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHEYOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus ROx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 16, 2004


didn't pass

Thursday, July 15, 2004


Smile, Jesus is Good!

---^ D

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

2:29PM - I name him Evil!

Oh Swordsman of the Sacred Sky,
I call on you,
I call on you.
Save me now before I die,
I call on you,
I call on you...

So here I am
In this battle plain,
Ready to fight against
Darkness reign.
Calling to The Swordsman
Calling to The Swordsman,
Ready to fight with sacred might!

I see my enemy,
His sword in bane,
I can’t believe
He was in my brain.
Calling to the Swordsman!
Calling to the Swordsman!
Aid me right! Sever this blight!

Oh Swordsman of the Sacred Sky,
I call on you,
I call on you.
Save me now before I die,
I call on you,
I call on you...

Out of me now
You horrid beast!
This body is
No more your feast!
I cut you from my life!
I cut you from my life!
I battle you! I hope you rue!

Evil I name you,
Creature of the least!
Your presence no more
Will make me triste!
I cut you from my life!
No more are you my strife!
I will do no more for you!

Oh Swordsman of the Sacred Sky,
I call on you,
I call on you.
Save me now before I die,
I call on you,
I call on you...

Though blood has spilled
Though he has killed…
This demon shall not have his fill.
The Swordsman’s sword will be his thrill,
I hope he dies with his own chill…

Monday, July 5, 2004

8:48PM - Mogenic

This force arises again...
The light that shouldnt be...
The light that darkness concealed
For so long in me...
Is it so easy to let go
Of a friend who wants so
Much what I gave up?
The forbidden love
That isnt' love at all!
It would only enthrall
Me in its darkness,
Its chains,
Into its pains,
Into whatever arcane
Madness it holds!
My sigh shouldn't be so cold...
I know hope,
He's a bright man
With a constant smile,
He'd never beguile
Me like deception did.
That bastard!
Still yet,
I felt the sting, like a cigarette
Burning into my skin...
I see the little plague;
It's a tiny virus,
But a virus
It should die!
The horrid creature!
It should die!
I don't want it...
I mean, my body does,
But I dont want it,
And it's not just cuz...
Because the Falconer spent so much time
Training me, the falcon.
He's the greatest man I'll ever know, the falconer..
I can't let him down, I the sinner
Can't let him down...
He's giving me a crown...
He shaped my wings,
He made me sound...
I cannot give in to this forbidden light...
With all my might...
I must fight...

Current mood: hopeful

Sunday, July 4, 2004

3:12PM - Survey bout me... THANX MANDA! hehe

stuff about me yeah haha+ Basics +
Are you emotional :?: NO! *hides a tear*
Do songs make you cry? No… not really If so, name a few?? nopperz
What about movies? LOL, no comment… no I didn’t cry watching titanic! SHUT UP!
What emotion do you usually feel? strain
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out? Either extreme Joy… or extreme loneliness/abandonment (but I mean… being COMPLETELY alone) the first one is more often =D
How many times have you done that ? the Joy one… quite a few… I don’t think I’v ever done the second one…
Where do you cry ? room, church
Do you hate crying ? only if its out of sadness
Do you like it when others cry? No, its devastating!
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty ? LOL, yeah, I look gorgeous
Who looks good when they cry? I dunno… Johnny Depp in Cry baby? Oops! Did I just say that?
How else do you express sadness? seriousness
Are you sad all the time? Nope! =D
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad? Forcing me to do something I choose not to do…
What do you do when you're angry ?: be seclusive
How short is your temper? : not very… I can tolerate quite a bit
How long does it take you to calm down? Pretty quick… I’m not stubborn =D
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? U don’t wanna know
Do you freak out when others are angry? No, unless its directed to me…
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you? nope
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad? Made me do something I REALLY didn’t want to do…
Do you anger people ?:: I dunno… hope not
+ Joy +
How often are you happy ?:: a good majority of the time =D
What makes you happy ? fluffy white clouds, the bright colors of the sky
What do you do when you're happy ?:: rejoice! Laugh uncontrollably! Banshee Scream!
How optimistic are you ?:: I think I’m an optimist =D
Do happy people make you mad? : Nope
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy? I dunno.. .stop?
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone ?: yes!
Ever been so happy you cried? Yup! Love it!
Do you smile a lot ?:: lol… I used to be KNOWN for it in elementary
Kiss people a lot:?: used to… I’d kiss just about anyone… but then… yeah… it got weird, LOL
Who really makes you happy ? Jesus!
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy ?: Sure! Hehe, I don’t see why I cant share the happiness!
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared ?:: get offensive and serious
What scares you? …
Do you like scaring people? Spook them a bit, but I generally don’t like to
Do you like the trill of being frightened? Cant stand it… its only fun under CERTAIN circumstances
Does fear accompany anger in your case? yeah
Ever been so scared you couldn't breath? nah
How often do you panic? I do it for kicks, but I don’t think I do it often
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER? …
What do you do to calm your nerves? Pray
Do rollercoasters scare you? No way! FUN!!! WEEEEE!!!!!!!
+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going? Stronger by Brittany Speares, LMAO, J/K J/K …. Hm… I’d have to say…right now I guess its “it’s a beautiful life” by Ace o Base (LOL, so much better ;P)
Movie ?:: the end of Lord of the Rings: Two Towers… love the dramatic music…
Commericial :: Gap, LMAO
Person : Jesus!
Thing ?:: Bible
Sight ?:: the changing colors of the sky
Sound? An orchestra with a woman singing Alto
Food ?:: Moist, Warm, Chocolate cake
Thing you're looking forward to/want ?:: Davis in the fall

+ Would you rather +
Never feel again? No! as much as my emotions can torture me, I wouldn’t want to be without them
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life ?: Anger…
Be happy forever and never experience bad times ?:: hm…that’s means I wouldn’t experience boredom… I dunno… that’s a tough question… heaven is supposed to be eternal happiness… so why not!?
Cause misery ?:: no…if I don’t like misery, y would I like to cause that to other people
Feel misery :?: NO!
Be alone ::? NO!!!
Be with everyone you know? I dunno…
+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else ? Krissy *Laughs for an hour none stop*
Angers you more than anyone else ?::hm…
Scares you more than anyone else ?:: hmm again…
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else ?: Jackie
Makes you really care about how they feel and what they think :?: my friends

Current mood: chipper

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

10:14PM - Freeway Fun

WHOA! hehe, driving is fun!!! My dad gave me some good freeway/highway practice... I drove down to huntington Beach... OH MAN!!! the OCEAN LOOKED SO AWESOME!!!!! it was a full moon, and the sea just glimmered in the moolight... I was like... WOW!!!!!!!! LOL... my driving isnt so bad I think... according to my dad though, I DO need to practice my reflex... hehe, I agree... but still! I'll practice, and it was fun!!! oh man! I'm all hyped up now... FREEWAY IS FUN! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, oh man, ok, ok... I'm alright now...

Current mood: energetic

Saturday, June 26, 2004


what words would I use that wont inflict pain? ARG! Stupid illegal fireworks wont shut up! ok they stopped, where was I? oh yeah... What words would I use that wont inflict pain? seems like one way they hurt him or I... which is worse? HA HA HA... I should laugh at this... one of curiosity's twins is a decietful little beast! the bastard... but no... I should just laugh... turn away... and laugh

Current mood: contemplative

Wednesday, June 16, 2004


Grad tomorrow... hmph... =D

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

12:49AM - Really?!?!?!?

I AM 51% EMO!
51% EMO
Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Monday, June 14, 2004

6:54PM - Love is a Rhapsody

Love... it's a rhapsody of multi-genres of music... it catches you in a spiraling of dancing water pillars... It has a grace unlike anything so earthen and rocky... so free, so light... TREMBLING WATERS STOP! don't unbalance this pattern! don't disrupt this rhythm! Stop trembling! Life is too short to spend with tears of despair... just dance... dance with the water, dance with the light... dance with love's harmonious plight...

Jesus Rocks!

Current mood: jubilant

Sunday, June 13, 2004


different places, different places... people are different wherever u go... where do I prefer to be? I dunno yet... Would I say I'd like to get out of here? maybe... gotta think about it more... I dunno... Ever hear a song u can't listen to anymore (or try not to listen to...).. it's not that u can't listen to it, theres just.... forget it...

Current mood: weird

Wednesday, June 9, 2004


Today was senior picnic! Whoa, what a day... it was different than I thought it was gonna be... actually, now that I think about it... its almost exactly like I though tit was gonna be... go fig... well... day started out with with a long ass bus ride... we ended up going to a gargantuan park over in La Brea... it started off with donuts and milk... then games began... I entered the threelegged race with Ray... we almost fell, but I didn't set out to do what I wnted to do... the objective was to catch up to the moving target (Mr. McMullen) go around him, and come back... I wanted to shove mr McMullen to the gorund, lol, it was Krista's IDEA!!!... well, after that, was the watermelon eating contest...I entered... and WON!!! haha... I thought people were beating me, but when I heard "Oh Crap, look at Benny!" I guess that was a sign I was doing well... Krissy has some digital pics of me with my face in a melon... wait, LMAO!... haha... whoa, I'm still full from the water melon... I just bit and swallowed... UGH!... then there was stuff. .Tug a war (lost that one) Egg toss (lost that one too... twice, lol) then then we had lunch... it was fun! Lauren, Gabby, Sherry and I went over to the hills... Lauren and I were determined to roll down... well... we did... we almost ended up falling into the river at the bottom of the hill... when I stoped, the edge was right at my shoulder... Lauren I think was the same.... THEN we got our yearbooks in a line that wouldn't end... and it was a great day... I gave my t-shirt prize (for winning the watermelon eating contest) to Jackie... her leg was hurt, so she didn't participate in a lot of the stuff that was goin on... but then Mr Wlasick was cool enough to slip me an extra free prize ticket... hehe, so i got a shirt too... oh man... everyone seemed dead tired by the end of the day... the bus ride was SO QUIET... aw... I dunno, it felt good, it was a good atmosphere... oh man, I'm gonna cry at grad!!!! well... g2g!

Current mood: relaxed

Tuesday, June 8, 2004


Strength is a gift...

Jesus Rocks!

Current mood: anxious

Monday, June 7, 2004

9:59PM - huh?

WHOA!!! did I like go forward in time and not notice????
Wait.. Ashley! how the hell is your entry about tomorrow???

whoa... Deja vu

Current mood: confused

9:58PM - huh?

WHOA!!! did I like go forward in time and not notice????
Wait.. Ashley! how the hell is your entry about tomorrow???

Sunday, June 6, 2004

1:48PM - DOn't let Hate grow...

Do ya ever notice a gleam sparklin in the shadows of your closet? Don't ignore it! It might just be that precious jewlery you thought u lost a while ago. You must have accidentally kicked it into the dark corners! Go get it before dust makes it dull!

Current mood: exhausted

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